haiiishh ~

i really hated today so much . so fuc*ed up .

woke up at around 12 plus . he told me cannot happen .
of course it sucks . hais . didn't want this to happened .
at the end , it did . i am utterly sad and disappointed .

i don't know what to say . seriously .
yeancheng came over at around 1 ?
then helped her edit her profile .
then went to buy snacks . panadol , coke .
and BEER of course . DRINK DRINK DRINK .
drowning my sorrows . then drank coke with panadol in it .
it actually equals to you taking drugs . AND ITS GOOD .
so relaxed . seriously . feel so blur . like i was un consious .

its nothing . and i am promising him not to do it again ?
LOLS . just had too many problems to overcome ?
then me and yc had a chat . i confided in her . SO MUCH .
i feel so much better . but still full of troubles . !

i don't know what to do alright .
i just want him back .

hope i can reutnr to the past when we had happy memories .
ILOVEYOU still . yet IHATEYOU