sigh

really very stress already .

daddy wants me to go home everyday after school because of HSA thing .

he's going to talk to mr zaidi and tell him to make me sign in and out . fuck it .

how am i suppose to spend time with *him ?

like that how ? i scared feelings will fade and stuff ?

i don't want to leave his side . sigh .

i really regretted touching cigarette's . because of them . sigh .

cannot spent time with *him . go out with *him . and almost everything .

although he didn't stop me from smoking . i should have headed his advice to stop .

why am i so fucking stupid ? i feel like leaving home .

i feel so stupid . i don't fit in my family .

my heart is like so in a not good state now .

all i'm thinking in my mind is *him .

still thinking how i can spent time with *him .

i really feel like running from home . really really want to .

although he don't want me to . it all because i want to spent time with him .

life ain't that great after all . its so fucking fucked up .

sigh . each time i think that i can't spent time with you .

i cry so hard . sigh . why is my life like that ?

why did i ever come across doing such stupid things in life .

darling , i'm so so sorry . how am i suppose to spent time with you i wonder ?

i really love you alot . I DONT WANT YOU TO LEAVE MY SIDE .

sigh . does anyone understand how i feel ?

darling , where are you ? sigh . i need to talk to you .

i need your comfort , i miss your hugs so much . sigh .

i want to be your forever wifey . can i ? i love you really alot .