sighhs ~

i wonder if it's called retribution .
i'm now experiencing what he has gone thru before ..
its just a act of retribution . i don't deserve anything from him now .

he happy means i'm happy . if he finds someone good .
i'm happy for him , but behind weeping in silence .
sigh , time does pass very fast .


in a act of speed , all that is left behind is memories ~
wonderful , pleasant but hurtful memories ..


i somehow regretted in actions . why did i choose to let go ?
giving up someone so different from any other guys .
why didn't i learn to cherish ? why didn't i choose to believe more in him ?
its the stubborn and un-mature side of me that effects ..


i cannot believe myself . why am i that pathetic though ?
i don't know what i want in life , i don't know who i want in life ...
i never did cherish him in the fact that he treats me wonderfully ~


i'm now in the speech of silent ..
thinking back to the past ..
how we spent time together .
those pleasant moments i didn't cherish .

i swear i'll live to regret ~
i don't deserve anything from him no more ~