I'm too depressed to speak, going through living hell.

I'm so screwed up now. I totally Screwed up everything. Yes, I know i disappointed you but you know the reason. All i asked for a last chance, Can't I get my last wish? You know how i felt about you, It has never changed at all. Never ever in my life. You know our past, You know the sweet times, You know how muched i loved you in the past, same for now. You know too much, I'm okay with you not trusting me, But i want a chance to gain it back bit by bit. But i guess it'll never happen ever again. I lost all your trust, I lost your love, Most importantly, I lost you. Although i have nothing else to lose already, I wanna gain your love, Your trust & most importantly you back. But i know it will never happen, Now I'll just remain the way I am. You can treat me like a friend, But i can't. I have never treated you as one, Never as a friend. & i don't want you to be my friend. Suddenly I've no mood to blog about this already, I'll continue perhaps tomorrow. For now, Sorry but I love you.


You took your heart & stab it towards mine. Now it's crushed But still loving you stubbornly. When I'm with you, my heart feels warm inside. There's something so insane about you that I'm head over heels for you. I know loving you isn't a mistake, Losing you was. No one could tempt me but you. Crossed my heart. & it'll Forever remained sealed.