boreddd

i can swear that i damn bored o i'm blogging .
come to think of it , i realised how idiotic and dumb i was in the past .
lets do and recall some personal flashback than .


primary six
used to think my family sucks than always ran away from home .
thinking if was cool to get into fights and getting into trouble .
shouting and uttering vulgarities in public catching attention .
never studied for PSLE . thinking studying was a waste of time .
thinking that parents only think of themselves and not for me .
- come to think of it , how stupid i was to think that way .


secondary one
entering a new secondary school life with a fucked up attitude .
behaving like a ah-lian with a bad reputation in school .
creating trouble with others through staring incidents which i now think i dumb .
quarreling and denying teachers instructions .
always breaking to school rules . and fooling around wildly .
being in a gang which i now think is not worth it to be in .
picking fights because of small matters .
running away from home as usual because lack of freedom .


come to think of it now , i realised it was such a stupid thing to do .
running away from home ain't worth it .
the more you run , the more your parents lack of your trust .
the lesser times you get to go out and have fun .
than i thought , i should just obey them and let their trust for me be earned back .
by my own doings , and after they gain back their trust for me ,
i'll be able to go out and enjoy myself .
although now , i can't really stay out that late .
because i'm still giving them trouble with school . but i'm willing to be punished .
as it was all my own doing that effects my going out life .

on the smoking and shop-lifting point .
if you want something , earn your own money and buy it .
why steal and get a bad record . how dumb am i ?
and why smoke by harming my own lungs and dying faster ?
wasting money buying cigarette's and than paying hsa fines .
ain't worth it at all i must say .

own the picking up on fights .
although now it sometimes still happen .
i'm trying to put all this nonsense to a stop .
not only for the sake of me promising me parents and darling .
but for the sake of my own future . girls must be more feminine i say . ha ~

on not studying .
i now aim to get good grades and score for O levels .
get into poly and choose a course based on my own interest .

being in a gang . what for ?
i used to think chup-ing was very sud-ki
but now ? it ain't after all . its just the name .
people think you are that stupid to actually chup


for now , i promise i will change for the better of course . !
for the sake of my parents , my promise to darling and for the sake of myself .
darling , i know i have break my promise a few times . i will change .
its my promise to you , and i will do it .


leaving for the air-port at 930pm .
the flight's at 12am . ohmyohmy .
unable to contact and see darling for one fucking whole week .
darling , when i'm back . you better be there standing waiting for me .
hahaha . i'm going to miss you like mad .
before i go . i better wih you something in advance .
because i'm unable to do so since im away and feeling guilty .
HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY DARLING

i'm happy being able to spent this month with you there by my side .
the days shall continue and me being there with you .
ILOVEYOU . ohyesohyes . i sosoSO love you !
i know you love me too =pPp darling , you're the only one in mind .

BYE everyone . you're all missed by meMEme !