ahben sucks !

how nice was yesterday . somehow disastrous !
we broke up !
and he initiated it . how "nice" could he be ?

okay . and i found out while we were together , he asked for other girls number . i know it's normal for guys to do that . but it's like HELLO ! i'm so not dead yet ? in case he doesn't notice he has a girlfriend ? ( at that point of time )

gosh . i don't understand how childish & barbaric guys could get ? some may be flirtatious but they are loyal . some are just flirtatious + un-loyal . how worse can it get ?

these type of people just so do not belong to the world i stress ~ and when breaking up , he just came out with some stupid reason ? which happens to me i know the real reason ? and i realise all guys , no , not all , mostly use that same reason . stupidity comes in their way .

i simply don't understand why do they say i love you when they seriously either don't know the meaning of those 3 words or the just say it cause everyone in the streets just simply say i love you when the meaning in it its like a old treasure chest . totally empty !

but somehow , as people tell me , these guys ain't worth a bit from what we deserved . somehow i think that its quite true . all guys know how to do : eat , sleep , flirt , say i love you when they don't mean it , go out & enjoy , clubbing , drink , take drugs , smoke , hang out at their friend's place . they are seriously just wasting their life away . oh yes they are ! but till one day , i'm sure they will be awake . if they don't ? they will be un-married throughout their life .

i'm so glad i didn't have to use any chinese or vulgarities to this post . it's just making me look like a sore loser . and someone that utters vulgarities . ( although my previous post have plenty of them , pardon me )

i've learn a lesson from this relationship , and thanks for letting me realise something . i will never take any relationship this serious till i get older . cause i know , nothing last forever . although people keep saying : i love you forever . and further-on ...

love ain't true .. c'mon . accept the reality . i don't think i'm the stupid one . as i think the stupid one is you . for being so naive . at least let both sides compromise by giving up the relationship . it's because , it involves two people's decision , and not only one . which is the one initiating the break up .

so to the *him , you know who you are . i somehow swear that even without you by my side , this ain't going to weaken me . it only makes me stronger . please don't go around flirting with other people when you have a girlfriend . as you know , one day , retribution might fall on you ...

i'm so glad we're over . somehow in someway ....
we're still brother & sister . and i'm going to continue loving you in that way ...