i'm experiencing jealousy now. oh fuck. i finally don't have him in my mind & yet now i'm really jealous about it & my mind is full of him. whats my fucking problem please. murder my heart. i want to bury those memories, but they kept haunting me. fuck this shit. nevermind, i'm sure later i'll be alright. cause i have no regrets. the only regret i have was loving him. i didn't regret knowing him, but i regretted loving him. if we actually remained as friends, we would be really close. and at least i know, friends is forever. whatever, it's all just shit.