I'm so bored now. I've been watching desperate housewives season one since yesterday midnight. Got the Dvd's. I'm dead bored. Not going out till next week. Next week is mommy's birthday. I miss Cine! It's been 5 days since i stepped into Cine. Okay, I'm very bored. Uh huh, I wanna change my blogskin. But i don't know what to change to. Nevermind, I'll start thinking of ideas already. Bye vagina's & crotches. Ha, what a nice way to describe. Lol.

Video's uploaded out of boredom & insanity.

Ying xing de chi bang- zhang shao han










Ben dan- Jin sha










You ni zhen hao- Yang cheng lin& Fan wei qi










U + Ur hand- Pink










Mr.Q- Jolin





Notice edison chen inside, He's like so cute!









Fireworks from hongkong disneyland, part one.









Fireworks from hongkong disneyland, part two.









Ng & Lee singing at kbox, Wo de ai ren, Ng's best song. Lol









Tong & Lee singing Ai mei. Pardon our out-of-tune parts & my messy hair. Lol

You whore

You think what gives you the right the reprimand me. You fucking slut. You not even my real mother, You're just a stepmother. I never even accepted you into the family. Like as though i have the choice to live with you. Think what, I don't dare say you back uh, I give father face only. You fucking whore. Screw you man.


Urgh, I hate my whole family. I only love Mom.

Let me blog about yesterday than.

Farhan woke me up at 9 in the morning. I was so tired i went back to sleep. Dreamt that Me & Ng went to malaysia together & woke up to realise it was just a dream & i was late in waking Ng up. & as usual we delayed time & Ng only came at 12 in the afternoon. I was like asking her why wear till so pretty, go Zoo gve animal take number uh? She was like Ya. Lol. Than we prepared & left at about 1230 & cabbed to Ang Mo Kio bus interchange. Waited for Lee to come & we took 138 to the Zoo. In the bus there was this couple who was super intimate, Ng found out, Lee took a picture & Tong supposed to post it. But I'm now very lazy so wait awhile. Than upon reaching the Zoo. We took tram to the children's worls & ate KFC. Than it started to rain. Than Ng & Lee is obsessed with taking pictures of themselves. Than we went to sit the train ride, & guess what we did, camwhored & sang damn loudly. We go Zoo take picture of ourself instead of the animals. Than after that we went to see animals. Saw the mandrills. Their ass is really colourful like rainbow! Than saw the chimpanzee. Than we went to see the crocodile. They're like huge! Than we stayed inside for quite some time cause the rain was really heavy. But me & Lee needed to Pee so badly we decided to run under the rain. Than we were running halfway & we came pass the Mugger crocodile, Than Lee talked to the crocodile saying: wah, mugger crocodile, You mug uh? Good, Study hard uh! Me & Ng was laughing like crazy! Than we went to the snake there. The green anaconda is so fucking huge & fat. Than we went to toilet & took the tram to the last stop. But still must walk very far to the entrance, Our moods were Low & we decided to run. Lee & Ng was all wet but i wasn't as i was Kiasu enough to purchase a poncho. Lol. Than we waited for bus back to AngMoKio. Upon reaching, We went to Kbox. Sang & stuff. Ng & Lee even fought. When the time was going to end, Some Fucker called & disturb like hell. Ng & Lee was scolding him like mad. He spoiled my mood & we all left Kbox. That son of a bitch! Than i went home.


Totally broke down when i got home, sigh. All to late, I'm such a fool. All i want is to be by your side. I love you. If there was a chance I could call you Bee, I would be really happy. Sigh, memories kept flashing back. I'm soooo screwed up for christ's sake. You said there was totally no more feelings? Your actions doesn't tell me so. Your care makes me love you more. Urgh, forget it. Even if you don't love me anymore. I'll be the one loving you.



You break my heart to pieces but I'm still loving you with those little pieces.

Your disappointment, My lost.


Sorry for making you disappointed in me, & i mean really disappointed. What i did cannot be forgiven. But can you be special & forgive me this time round? Sorry for lying as well. I didn't want you to get pissed about it thats why i lied. But i guess it's worse now. I lost that chance, I'm trying my best to get it back. I know you don't trust me anymore. At least give me a chance to gain it back slowly, My sins couldn't be cleared but can't you at least understand what i did was with a reason & not unknowingly. You don't like me to ask you to think about the past, but really, think. How much laughter & happiness there was. We can be never better than friends? I can't bring myself to do that. We can be more than friends, It's just if you want to only. As long as you give me the chance to, It could all return, better. I'll not hate you, But I'll love you wholeheartedly.


Remember when we first met? I went to find you. You kepy pushing my head & ang gu gu-ing me. We're see-ing who is more vain. Remember the first time we took pictures? Trying to take the perfect shot of our kisses. Remember when you first fetched me from school? When i hug you to sleep, disturb you from sleeping. Laughing like crazy cause we talked about bangala's. The time when you disturbed me before i sleep? The first time we went out? Doing each other's hair. Our first movie together. Our first kbox sessions, I even recorded a video. I love your singing so much as well. Remember i was suppose to bring you eat chocolate fountain? When you kissed me after eating durian, drinking saltwater? When you keep pinching me with me complaining about my makeup. Buying throat smoothener when your throat was not well. You wanting to come down & find me cause i drank & wasn't feeling well. You complaining to me about your kuku boss. Us planning the future, with you complaining i spend too much money & wondering hows our kids going to survive. Going to sentosa on our one month. Me in your arms & we're chatting away happily. You worrying cause I'm out late. You going to buy ding dang tang for me cause I felt like eating. So many memories. Appear so clear in my mindset.


How could I just put them aside? You're my bestest Boyfriend ever. The guy who cares, Treats me well & takes me seriously. Can't you put what i did aside & we start afresh? If you really love me, You'll be willing to do so. I really love you, I'm willing to do whatever it takes you get back your heart. Don't stop me, Cause thats the only wish i have now, which is to have you back by my side. Don't do this to me, don't treat me this way. I'll never stop loving you. You're forever the guy i wanna love. Let me love you once more. Give me the final chance, & I'll show you what my love for you is made of. I love you, This is the only line i wanna say & never stop saying. Sigh, Craving for your love & heart.



Torns pricking my heart, but staying strong cause you're the reason i live.

I'm too depressed to speak, going through living hell.

I'm so screwed up now. I totally Screwed up everything. Yes, I know i disappointed you but you know the reason. All i asked for a last chance, Can't I get my last wish? You know how i felt about you, It has never changed at all. Never ever in my life. You know our past, You know the sweet times, You know how muched i loved you in the past, same for now. You know too much, I'm okay with you not trusting me, But i want a chance to gain it back bit by bit. But i guess it'll never happen ever again. I lost all your trust, I lost your love, Most importantly, I lost you. Although i have nothing else to lose already, I wanna gain your love, Your trust & most importantly you back. But i know it will never happen, Now I'll just remain the way I am. You can treat me like a friend, But i can't. I have never treated you as one, Never as a friend. & i don't want you to be my friend. Suddenly I've no mood to blog about this already, I'll continue perhaps tomorrow. For now, Sorry but I love you.


You took your heart & stab it towards mine. Now it's crushed But still loving you stubbornly. When I'm with you, my heart feels warm inside. There's something so insane about you that I'm head over heels for you. I know loving you isn't a mistake, Losing you was. No one could tempt me but you. Crossed my heart. & it'll Forever remained sealed.

Finally i'm not lazy to post recent pictures out. Hmmm, Going to the zoo later. Haha. Yay, I'm suppose to blog about Lee but i'm lazy. So tomorrow alright. Byeeee~

You bring me aches.







ervin & me.
So fierce luh he.
Denise, Shanling, Ervin
Ng is scaryyyy~




My babes.
My girls.



Bargirl.


My close ones.

Deb & denise



Ice cream session



Look at dad!







Sausage,