Your disappointment, My lost.


Sorry for making you disappointed in me, & i mean really disappointed. What i did cannot be forgiven. But can you be special & forgive me this time round? Sorry for lying as well. I didn't want you to get pissed about it thats why i lied. But i guess it's worse now. I lost that chance, I'm trying my best to get it back. I know you don't trust me anymore. At least give me a chance to gain it back slowly, My sins couldn't be cleared but can't you at least understand what i did was with a reason & not unknowingly. You don't like me to ask you to think about the past, but really, think. How much laughter & happiness there was. We can be never better than friends? I can't bring myself to do that. We can be more than friends, It's just if you want to only. As long as you give me the chance to, It could all return, better. I'll not hate you, But I'll love you wholeheartedly.


Remember when we first met? I went to find you. You kepy pushing my head & ang gu gu-ing me. We're see-ing who is more vain. Remember the first time we took pictures? Trying to take the perfect shot of our kisses. Remember when you first fetched me from school? When i hug you to sleep, disturb you from sleeping. Laughing like crazy cause we talked about bangala's. The time when you disturbed me before i sleep? The first time we went out? Doing each other's hair. Our first movie together. Our first kbox sessions, I even recorded a video. I love your singing so much as well. Remember i was suppose to bring you eat chocolate fountain? When you kissed me after eating durian, drinking saltwater? When you keep pinching me with me complaining about my makeup. Buying throat smoothener when your throat was not well. You wanting to come down & find me cause i drank & wasn't feeling well. You complaining to me about your kuku boss. Us planning the future, with you complaining i spend too much money & wondering hows our kids going to survive. Going to sentosa on our one month. Me in your arms & we're chatting away happily. You worrying cause I'm out late. You going to buy ding dang tang for me cause I felt like eating. So many memories. Appear so clear in my mindset.


How could I just put them aside? You're my bestest Boyfriend ever. The guy who cares, Treats me well & takes me seriously. Can't you put what i did aside & we start afresh? If you really love me, You'll be willing to do so. I really love you, I'm willing to do whatever it takes you get back your heart. Don't stop me, Cause thats the only wish i have now, which is to have you back by my side. Don't do this to me, don't treat me this way. I'll never stop loving you. You're forever the guy i wanna love. Let me love you once more. Give me the final chance, & I'll show you what my love for you is made of. I love you, This is the only line i wanna say & never stop saying. Sigh, Craving for your love & heart.



Torns pricking my heart, but staying strong cause you're the reason i live.