i blame myself for the outcome . its all my wrong .
till now , he have not contacted me . despite all my calls and messages . i've received to source of reply .. i hate this so much ~

i've been crying myself to sleep . crying too much for my age ..
i've been having lack of sleep . now , i'm having a fever .
and he doesn't know . i was hoping he cares ? but i don't know ..

baby , why are you giving me the cold shoulder ?
you're acting as though you've never known me ..
i don't want this to end , you don't know how much i'm in love with you ..
you're not giving me a chance to speak my mind ..
why are you like that now ?

i know everything started because of me ..
but , at least give me a chance to speak my mind ?
you wouldn't even want to hear me ..

now , i still think , love is still not forever ..
i love him . but i don't know if he does ? sigh ~
i just want him to pay more attention to me .
couldn't he do that ? i'm his girlfriend !!!
not an enemy . why is he treating me like one ?

god , help me could you ?
i'm in a mess .. sooner of later i'll go crazy .. i swear on that ..
my heart's breaking , my head's aching . i'm lost .
would he still be there for me ? sigh ...