life made it worst for me without him ..

yesterday midnight . went downstairs find lewis buddy and terence (:
thanks buddy for trying to cheer me up :D

today didn't go to school .
didn't really have the mood and some more , fever still .

today . woke up at around 12 plus . stayed home and left home around 2 .
went down to school , waited for desiree and gang ..
and headed to her place . slacked there .
and than settle the thing . so dumb la .

and i went home .

thanks to those who tried cheering me up ..
but the only one who really can is him ..
but he's no longer here . was sms-ing with him last night ..
he takes is so easy . as though nothing happened ..
i've got nothing much to say ..

but i really missed him alot ..
everything is gone . the 010806 memories is gone ..
he become my memories instead of staying in my life ..
i guess i'm really a burden to him .
i can't blame him either , it's all my wrong . everything is ..

each time i see our pictures , the pain is really there .
everytime i listen to those songs we used to sing together .
my heart aches . especially when i listen to gui ji - jay chou
it reminds me of him so much ..

i miss it when he sings that song to me ..
i requested him to sing it the last time ..
he said he won't find to anyone else .. only me ..
why must he say all this ? i don't even know if it's true ..

i miss him so much . i'm such a failure in love ..
now things couldn't be turned back .
there's not even a chance of patching up .
i guess everything is really gone ?

but i'll never stop loving him .
he's someone that really means alot to me ..
he was the best boyfriend i ever had . or should i say ex-boyfriend ?
he said we're still friends . but i can't treat him as one . !
it's not easy , yet he can do it ..

sigh , 010806 ~ 1900 . i'll always remember this ..
those wonderful moments you gave me .. i'll never forget ..

i love him .. ong wei lun ~ it will never end .. sorry .