jack is really darn mean !
i actually only owe him a meal , a pack of ciggerette's and drink .
he was like , there's lots more .
and he'll let me know when he thinks of it .
darn him . ever since when did i start to owe so much ...
i am so gonna fail my english ): GOD HELP . it'll be total murder suicide for me if i fail my english , i better be off dead . english is the root of your education . fail english = retain / drop to NA . both choice SUCKS . staying in the school 4 years is already a torture . you talk about 5 years for me ? hell no ! let's pray , hopefully me CA will pull up my SA marks . if not i'll murder myself (:
finished exam at 12pm (:
went home to change . and left home around 145 .
met him at united square and went to junction8 .
we were practically bored there ! till i almost died please .
cabbed home at around 5plus ?
went home . dad came home , and went to IMM .
ate and shopped around (:
i'm lazy to blog .
carlos and jack say they teach me study -.-
like that confirm fail . cannot cannot . HAHAHA (:
it'll be a torture for me till 17th oct .
when exams are gone and over .
than i'll shout HOORAY !!!
for now , i can only cry out loud BOOHOO ):
murder suicide .
the sweet talks you said .
i miss you ):
i wanted to upload pictures today but darn blogger take so long to load . shall upload either tomorrow or during the weekends then (:
went to school today (: was abit late . cause daddy wanted to do some last minute shiting . haha !
mrs tay talked to me behind . and i laughed darn loud . everyone stared at me . LOL ! than me , georgina , jeanette were walking to class . we were trying to guess how many KG that biatch's butt weighs . they say 10KG . i say 30KG . LOL ! the rest of the weight is her breast . HAHAHA =p
first lesson was math . we had math test (: and liang rong helped me colour my art . thanks (: than was art .
than was recess (: as usual , had crap sessions (: than was science , had relief teacher . so was listening to songs . than was chinese , listened to songs and fell asleep . than was CME . than was english . than school ended .
met jeanette , junrui son and colin . outside school at econ almost got fight ! jianan kor was outside . than there's this sengkang sec guy , don't know what happened , the next minute i heard them shouting and their face was so close to each other . than that guy was like saying that he was from duapo or something ? than ahsiao and koksheng came down already . very fast . than ahsiao don't know say what to the guy , he walked away -.- LOL !
than walked to compass . went to mac , ate there and brandon came . than he eat and we walked around awhile and i went home .
i got exams tomorrow ): but school ends at 11.45am (: and after school heading home to change and going out for while yeah (:
chatting with kelvin just now . he's so funny !
school was superbly normal today . just that there was times when i was so angry that i went crazy and behaved like a psycho .
i slept at 3.30am last night . imagine having only 2 and a half hours of sleep before heading off for school . i almost died . my eyes were liked close even when i was walking .
went to school . was busy finding a book because i thought i didn't bring one . after finding high and low for a book . i found a darn book in my bag . waste of my energy plus time .
first lessons was home economics . i was dozing off in class . i couldn't take it as i was really on the verge of dying from lack of sleep . than was recess . while waiting for my girls , was sitting with wengchew son they all . darn funny . they are such jokers please . cause wengchew son has a lip piercing right . yangzhi was like , you eat noodle you can pull out the noodle from the hole -.- than gary eat the noodles till he sweat till darn alot . cause he cannot eat chilli and pepper one . cause it's too hot for him . i was laughing like a psycho (:
than after recess was math . we were all thinking where to hide handphones . as there were rumours that there is going to be a bagcheck . so we put our phones in plastic bags and hid them inside the electricity there . darn dusty !
than was chinese . brandon son they all went to sing song all together . they sing darn funny . i was laughing and laughing non-stop ! than HOD of chinese came into our class and observe our behaviour . we all act till darn good please . brandon son has alot of crap coming out of his mouth . he say things than the HOD question him . he crapped till she has nothing to say .
than was english . i was trying my best and the best of all to pay attention to mr tay . as there's exam on friday . but as usual , fell asleep . damn ! and when i woke up . my hands are legs were like numb . i stand up and i fell towards the table beside . no balance at all . and my hand have marks all over .
than was enrichment . had some talk ? me , jeanette and georgina placed a bet . we must talk proper english all the time . those found with other singlish or whatever language will be fined 10cents for each word . haha . it is to help us improve our standard of english . i am considering joining the debate as CCA . cause it helps in your english . and we were dismissed about 15 minute's late after school . met desiree . and we took lrt to rivervale plaza . saw huiling (: and we went downstairs her house find alan kor and lester . than we all went up her place . i love her dog . so cute please . and thats when it all started .
i forget for what reason i got mad at alan . and we fought . and he use pillow cover my face and i hit the wall . it was darn pain i tell you . i almost cried . i was so angry i went home .
than reached home . rot . and so on ...
friday is my english and chinese paper 1 . wish me luck people (:
i have a feeling i'll flunk it badly . oh heavens !
i can't afford to flunk english . i must at least get a A2 for english .
if not i'll murder myself .
i don't want to appear in school tomorrow . murder me please (:
your charming smiles , those captivating eyes . that sweet mouth .
your everything , is my misses - i'll never forget ..
that warm sweetness you embrace me in (:
i fucking hate dad for shouting at me .
i fucking hate dad for controlling my life .
i fucking hate dad for stressing me out .
i fucking hate dad cause he is a mother fucker .
i fucking hate my life cause it fucking sucks .
i fucking hate everything . cause everything is fuck .
so all fuck off . cause all is fuck .
_l_
作曲:周杰伦
轨迹
怎么隐藏我的悲伤
失去你的地方
你的发香散的匆忙我已经跟不上
闭上眼睛还能看见
你离去的痕迹
在月光下一直找寻那想念的身影
如果说分手是痛苦的起点
那在终点之前我愿意再爱一遍
想要对你说的不敢说的爱
会不会有人可以明白
我会发着呆然后忘记你
接着紧紧闭上眼
想着那一天会有人代替
让我不再想念你
我会发着呆然后微微笑
接着紧紧闭上眼
回想那一年你温柔的脸
在我忘记之前
心里的眼泪
模糊了视线
你会看不见
best song ever (:
i'm so bored . didn't go to school today (:
i remember those times when you tell you love me darling .
every single minute we spent together , meant so much ..
recalling the time when i just knew you .
we called each other baby . and you kept ang gu gu - ing me .
the first time i went to find you . i kept bullying you .
beating you till your chest was red .
when i went home , you asked me to be your girlfriend .
i wasn't sure about it , but was willing to give a try .
i still remember that message clearly in my mind (:
you asked me to be your baby forever =D
i told you about my freedom issue .
you said you want to love me , not love my freedom baby .
the first day i met you as a boyfriend .
we met at compass , along with alan .
we went to your place as well . you were a great boyfriend (:
our first outing together was to town (:
more specific , cine .. i went to your place in the morning .
watching you prepare yourself , and you watching me preparing .
did each other's hair . were such pleasant memories .
met maomao along . and went to town (:
our madness picture taking session (:
and our first movie together , click (:
feeding each other popcorn , finding the sweet one desperately .
tearing a little bit at the end of the show . sweetness -
going to kbox . was the first time going with a boyfriend .
singing songs together (: those times i really miss , alot .
our one month . to sentosa along with some friends .
both our first time going to sentosa with stead at the beach .
not going down the water , simply just enjoying the breeze .
and of course , each others company , especially with me in your arms .
it really meant alot , especially the way i feel .
the memories were simply too much .
you always singing me gui ji . it melts me heart so much ~
for you being so sweet . too sweet in fact .
me always being small gas and getting pissed over minor things .
and you always giving in to me over and over again .
i apologise for those moments , it's too late to even regret a little .
those moments were times of my life i enjoyed the most .
with you around , you never fail to make my day perfect (:
i thought you were the one , but i was wrong about everything .
i thank you for every little sweet thing you did for me (:
i'll never forget them , ever ...
you're too sweet to be true , when i was in love with you .
although i'm still deeply , but i won't want you to know ..
how i feel now ...
you gave me the best love that other guys couldn't .
thanks for those special moments . they mean alot .
i miss you , in fact , so much ..
although life seems different now , as i'm not use to alot of things .
one thing that'll never change , my love for you ..
i don't wanna deceive myself any further .
by telling myself i don't love you anymore .
cause the more i deceive myself , the more i miss your everything .
i'll let time control my life .
may our love and memories rest in peace (:
they lie strongly across my heart , swearing to never be replaced (:
once again , i love you , and i tell myself that ...
HADY WON . OH YES OH YES OH YES !!!
I THINK JOAKIM IS SO HOT !!!
BUT STILL , TO ME , *HE'S STILL THE HOTTEST (:
woke up this morning .
i had a chance of not going school . but i went . good girl (:
but my darn cramps were murdering the shiat out of my stomach .
went to school . morning assembly in courtyard .
georgina didn't come school today .
cause her dog bibi ran out of home and is lost .
my dear girl , cheer up (: you'll find him !
dismissed back to class . free period .
and i fell asleep . woke up . and headed to hall .
ernern & amanda's phone was confiscated by vice-principle .
went to hall . some dance programme .. not really interested .
and long speeches given by vice-principle .
than was recess . and went to the canteen .
darn yeancheng was darn retarded during recess .
had me and jeanette cracking like retard's in the school .
but the real retard is miss tan yean cheng :D
she ought to be sent to the mental hospital please .
she's darn retarded seriously . ( she's beside me now ) =p
and wengchew son became darker cause he went fishing -.-
he has that type of otah colour tan . he's otah boy (:
than when the bell rang , yeancheng was darn comical .
i pushed her and she hitted her 'boyfriend' hockleng .
and his reaction was darn retarded . darn funny !!
i was laughing my socks out that my saliva dropped out . LOL !
than next lesson was computer studies . had free period (:
and we were using the computer . quite entertaining at least .
than was chinese , i was busying listening to my song (:
and came across the song gui ji . memories appeared .
but as i said , they were memories . his voice seemed to appear in my mind .
than was geography . i was there listening to same script , different cast . by whitney houston and deborah cox . cause i found the lyrics really darn meaningful . i really love that song even though it's quite way back (:
than last lesson was literature . watched some cartoon movie .
than dismissed (: waited for yeancheng at econ .
some stupid people were at econ , i hate that bunch .
want to let people know they've got no life but to gather there everyday .
than yeancheng came , took bus to hougang mall .
big drama for me in the bus , i was so pissed !
but first , kelvin boarded the bus and i disturbed him again (:
he gave me that darn shy kind of look . i was laughing loudly !
okay , here's the big thing i was talking about .
i was like playing a song from my phone .
this girl sitting beside me , went to on her techno song louder .
i was okay with it , i turned towards her direction .
and looked at her phone , than she looked at me .
and gave me that type of not happy look , and she diao-ed me .
typical stupid small lian . and she showed off her tongue stud -.-
come on , you think the whole singapore only you got ?
than when she was alighting the bus , she turned towards our direction .
and again , diao-ed us really till darn biatch type of look .
i was like so mad at that time lah , and she show off her stud again -.-
i really felt like going to her face to slap and pull her tongue lah !
stupid small kid . so childish ! walk like a lian , act like one .
she think she got tongue stud very 'kiang' . kiss my arse .
i was so desperate to kill the biatch out of her .
stupid biatch . small girl , this type of thing so old school already .
still want play , wake up lah . stupid stupid arsehole !
she's darn alibaba man ! was so pissed . our mood was ruined by her .
that bloody small act lian . think she very 'kiang' biatch ^@!#$^@&
than me and miss tan yeancheng went to long john and eat (:
than there's this darn funny thing to me and her . here goes ...
yc : did you see what i see ?
me : huh ? what thing .
yc : its my mother ..
me : ( turned to the long john food counter )
by that time i was darn scared , cause her mother very fierce .
my heart was like dropping out of my mouth any time .
and we were laughing darn loudly and our hearts almost stopped .
than when her mother finish buying food ...
me : she coming already coming already .
( bent down our head and look at her )
she smiled at me and somehow patted my head .
WOAH , sigh of relief for both of us lah ~
i almost died of heart attack ! i'm darn scared of her mum !
she's my tao eh (: hahaha ! hor yeancheng hor ? ( she say no ) stupid !
than we went to get my tongue stud . i bought 2 more .
i'm darn into buying studs now lah . madness i must say ..
than we took mrt back to our place (:
than we used the computer . was supposed to study , but i didn't .
she did (: and and , we went downstairs as we were bored .
went to buy bubble tea and went to kopitiam eat roti-prata .
and he messaged me (: was so darn happy at that time please .
he's doing fine , i'm really happy for him (:
went back to my place . daddy bought long john for dinner . AGAIN !
now at home with yeancheng and my maid .
dad , mum and sis went to great-grandma's house cause it's her birthday .
there's singapore idol in another 25 minutes .
GO HADY GO . i think that johnathan is like the english version of sylvester .
and hady is like the whiter version of taufik . it's so the same !
GO HADY GO .
although everything are left as memories .
everything you said and did and what we did remains in my heart .
cause it's difficult to erase them .. i can't do it ..
you used to be the one but now you're no longer mine ...
i miss your everything (: but everything is too late .
i still love you , as you were the bestest guy and boyfriend i ever knew (:
there's school tomorrow . OH HEAVENS ):
mummy picked me up at 12pm sharp today (:
and headed to bugis . its been so long since i stepped in bugis !
bought tickets first and went to big bird and eat .
FINALLY , after so long !
than walked around to pass time .
mummy bought me 2 tops (:
i showed mummy my tattoo and tongue piercing .
mummy nagged at my tongue piercing more than my tattoo -.-
and my step-dad kept making fun of the way i talk !!!
than 2.10 . went to watch john tucker must die (:
it's a good show , you guys should catch it . i give it 5/5 nachos !
than after that . i separated from mummy awhile .
went to village find ahjoy aiai (: so long since i saw her .
chatted while and i went to find huifeng jie (:
she darn baichi . cause her favourite word is baichi .
and she kept saying it over and over again!
called eunice girlfriend , she don't want me find her .
cause she say she today not pretty -.- stupid her !
than huifeng jie pei me buy ciggerette . and we smoked at her shop .
and talk . she baichi ah she ! than bought a tongue stud from her shop ..
went off at 4.30 . went back to find mummy . and went to tampanis mall .
went there , eat pastamania (:
and around 6 plus went to church cause mummy want go .
i was so bored there i told her i wait for her downstairs .
and i went to the block beside and smoke (:
finished at 7 and went to her place and watch singapore idol (:
went home around 9 plus (:
heard there are some complications about people kar-ing vanese jiao wei ?
LOL . childish acts .
YAY . i love my phone (:
yesterday went to wisma with family eat dinner .
the food at the foodcourt is darn good i tell you .
walked around . daddy refused to buy the flesh imp top for me >< he say my cupboard got alot of clothes i haven't wear .. say i waste money ><
i want that flesh imp top !! i shall get it after exams (:
quarreled with cheryl just now .
everything's cleared up (:
nothing could ruin our sistership (:
and finally things are cleared up (:
i'm starting to get use to life without him .
i'm finally achieving it (: YAY !
he's doing fine , so am i . so we're both happy .
it may be better idea remaining as friends .
cause i know the real him being his friend .
he's still a nice guy to me . so yeah ~
got to go grandma's place soon (:
i'll be missing from town till after exams i guess ?
YAY . no towning for a few weeks .
can save money . than can buy my vintage dress (:
I LOVE EVERYONE (: CHEERS !
i'm getting tired of everything ...
morning wake up after being called by daddy alot of times .
went to school .
first lesson was science , i forgot what was i doing .
but i was not sleeping . than was english , than i fell asleep .
than was recess . sit with desiree , gerald and brandon .
as my girls were like missing !!
than follow wengchew son find kelvin .
cause i want to disturb him . he's damn funny lah ~
he damn shy can , i smile at him , he paiseh .
LOL ! i was laughing like mad ..
than was geography , there was a cockroach in the toilet .
i was trying to chase it out with my leg but it kept going in rounds -.-
than was CT&PC . we were all having a good laugh . damn funny !
than finished school . i'm yangzhi's taoeh's ahma (:
hahaha ! cause yangzhi is wengchew son's ginna . LOL ! lame lah they !
than find desiree . walked out of school .
saw indra , so take ciggerette from him and together go smoke .
we were talking about intestines . LOL !!!
than desiree accompanied me to find weilun , pass him thing ..
and i went off to hougang point awhile . than no mood .
so i went home , thanks desiree for pei-ing me (:
i'm getting my phone later (:
i thought i was strong enough to face you , i'm wrong ..
when i saw you , all i thought of were the past .
i controlled those tears hat almost came out ...
i than walked away , crying in a corner ..
and telling myself , i must not love you anymore ..
if i continue loving you , it'll only hurt more ..
ohoh , and i was told by daddy we're going to hongkong for shopping spree with whole family during november . OH YEAH OH YEAH (: and maybe alaska too . COOL !!!
luckily its not on cheryl's birthday .
if not she'll kill me (: hahaha !
I LOVE SHOPPING (:
today was a day full of laugher . hohoho !
a happy normal go lucky day for me :DDD
went to school in a sleepy + sickly mode . it sucked ..
than during reading period went toilet with georgina .
there's this sec1 girl who puked until darn sick .
don't know is it she pregnant or not ?
i was giving georgina that kind of " what the hell " look . haha !
than first lesson was math . mrs tey didn't come .
so i slept for that hour (: than was art .
than was recess . wengchew son suppose to fight 1 on 1 with one very superly super xialan guy from sec 1 . he retain during primary school . than that guy complain to OM -.- so whatever please ! he always walk 386 one mah ! now tell OM . dot dot dot !
than was science , surprisingly i didn't sleep .
than was chinese . so i slept all the way from 12 - 230 .
which was when school ended (:
met desiree . than went to smoke ..
than we took cab to hougang mall . buy my tongue stud .. and hers ..
than went to eat long john , i LOVE long john lah !
than went back to my place . in the mrt right , we were laughing like mad please . non-stop !
than at my house there saw darren . so sit there slack while and take ciggerette from him as mine finished . hahaha !
than went back to my place . desiree use the piercing needle pierce her tongue . the sight was damn sick . she couldn't talk so we had to communicate using writing .. hahaha ! than it was my turn . mine was easier as i had the small hole there cause i used the pin to pierce . so , it was not that painful . and we were happy . FINALLY , after many attempts , this time is was very sucessful + un-painful ..
than she went back around 6 .
tomorrow getting my phone . SAY HOORAY !
oh , and , HAPPY BIRTHDAY YINGHUI DEAR DEAR :DDD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ....
JIANQIAN WIFEY .
HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY
&
SANDY JIEJIE
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY !
today is a bad day . i can swear .. !
i went to school today .
met my dear girls and went to hall for morning assembly .
first lesson was home economics . we had practical test ,
so we had to cook a dish of our choice .
and i cooked cabonara ! which is pasta , spaghetti just that the sauce is white .
teacher said it is very fattening but nutritious as well .
so she closed one eye on the fattening part =D
i love shireen's milo drink . it was damn good i tell you ~
and putra and farhan's food were good too !
huijin made sushi . damn shiok man eat already !
than recess , ernern , gladys and shireen eat my cabonara . hahaha !
than wengchew son damn lame please , he went around telling people , you my brother anot ? than shake hand , than he pull out their pocket on their shirt -.-
than was math , i was busy sleeping . and chinese i slept abit ..
than ernern we all were busy talking (:
than was english , i just sat there and rot .
than went to the hall , had spotcheck .
shireen , me , gladys , ernern , helena and angelia was laughing all the way .
cause we was trying to pin up each other's fringes .
than i kept making shireen's fringe , damn funny lah ~
than ernern damn wierd , she go take pepper and smell cause she want to sneeze -.-
than guys with sideburns must go shave . abit also cannot . gregory son damn zai bodoh , he scold the teacher than walk out of hall . brandon son also another zai one . he scold and shout at the teachers in front of everybody than he walk out of the hall even though they call him come back over and over again . but they really quite un-reasonable lor the school .
than school ended , than chatted with my sons awhile and i headed home ..
and today was a really bad day cause of something .
but i shan't name it out .
if you think i'm that kind of person ? you're wrong .
you really don't know me well .. you know your words hurt me ?
being said for someone i didn't even do , do you know how it feels ?
please , think about my feelings although it really isn't important .
i'm still a human , not someone that you can hurt like that ~
but if what i said still won't change about what you think of me ,
than i shan't say no more as it isn't of any use anymore .
if i got the chance , i've got an evidence to show you ..
i will show it to you if you ask , if not , it's alright ..
we're still friends at least ? i hope ?
take good care of yourself :D
i want to see you smile .
i want a time machine , so i can go back in time ..
you're no longer the person i used to know ...
change back to him would you ? SMILEEEE :DDDD
god , give me a time machine !!! ):
作曲:周杰伦
轨迹
怎么隐藏我的悲伤
失去你的地方
你的发香散的匆忙我已经跟不上
闭上眼睛还能看见
你离去的痕迹
在月光下一直找寻那想念的身影
如果说分手是痛苦的起点
那在终点之前我愿意再爱一遍
想要对你说的不敢说的爱
会不会有人可以明白
我会发着呆然后忘记你
接着紧紧闭上眼
想着那一天会有人代替
让我不再想念你
我会发着呆然后微微笑
接着紧紧闭上眼
回想那一年你温柔的脸
在我忘记之前
心里的眼泪
模糊了视线
你会看不见
happy birthday to ...
YANLING JIEJIE :D
LILING JIEMEI :D
YUANPING WIFEY :D
didn't attend school again today .
early morning went to the doctor's .
waited for so long till my turn ..
than at home ,
i cannot stand carlos , he keeps saying other language .
making me like what the hell ? i don't understand lah ~
3 plus went to kovan with my maid to get home econ ingredients .
i've got home econ's practical test tomorrow .
and i'm cooking pasta (:
went home , cook , it was okay okay ~ can pass !
i'm darn drowsy now , the medicine's getting into me ..
back to school tomorrow ): sigh ..
life is lonely without him but i will get used to it .
although i keep thinking of those wonderful spent memories ,
i will think of them as memories only (:
thanks for those wonderful moments . i'm really grateful .
i'll never forget you , you're always the best !
take care , as you're always falling sick (:
i'm on my road of getting him off my mind (:
say YAY !!!
YAY ! i'm falling sick again !
i have really bad sore throat and flu (:
and i'm starting to feel hot , say hello to fever !
this means , most probably , NO SCHOOL !
OH YEAH OH YEAH (:
i thought it over , everyone's right .
whats the point of hanging on and wasting your life time ?
i want to be a happy girl without a guy (:
i just want my brothers and sisters (: they're always the best !
ong wei lun , you're my past . no longer what i cling onto !
CONGRATULATIONS TO DENISE TONG :DDDD
all guys all no change pattern one .
pattern all zai zai one :D
relationships won't last at our age ..
i finally thought it over , how dumb was i to cling onto it ?
OH GOD SLAP ME .
and thanks to people who really care :D
adeline big sis (: ahben big bro (: alan best bro :DD aloy (:
andrea cream :DD beibei sister (: angie big sis (: cheryl sister :DDD
denny best big bro :DD desiree (: dexter (: georgina darling :DDD
guang yi big bro (: jiaqian laopo (: kailing confident (: kendre mother :DD
kelvin (: lewis best buddy :DD liang rong (: mango :DD shanling dearie :DDD
liling only jiemei :DDD shuana laopo :DD shireen bestie :DD shilin :DD
vanese sister :DDD yeancheng sister :DDD wengchew best son :DDD
yanling big sis :DD yuanping wifey :DDD
and and , congratulations to my dearest lewis buddy (:
for getting attached again , may happiness fall on you (:
love you buddy ! thanks for always being there for me (:
and now , the names i will mention , you'll always be there bestest people i had ever known in my life :DDDD
ahjoy aiai , ahben korkor , alan brother , andrea cream , daniel , denny korkor , farliana jiejie , guang yi korkor , jiaying sweety , jiaqian laopo , kailing confident , kendre mother , kerin korkor , lewis buddy , liling jiemei , lynnette darling , miki baby darling , mogan lam , shanling dearie , shuana laopo , shilin , siman meimei , yanling jiejie , yifeng nuer , yuanping wifey :DD
people in school :DD
desiree , liang rong , weiming , melvin , junming , darius , colin :D
my ahbu&eight jiemeis ~
wengchew bestest son , gregory son , brandon son , jeanette daughter ,
kenneth son , junrui son , darren son , georgina daughter ,
myPERVERTS
shireen , gladys & ernern ~
and lastly , my BESTEST SISTERS EVER !!
vanese ng hui lin
cheryl lee xue li & lastly ,
tan yean cheng :DD
i love all these people :DD
ong wei lun , thanks for appearing in my life ..
i appreciate everything , even though its gone , we're still friends :DD
all the best and take care , you're the best boyfriend i ever had :D
hope you find a much more better girlfriend :D
weilun's sister is so cute ..
talking to her online now .
she told me she keep cry cause we broke up ):
she's so silly please .. hahaha .
smile eh girl (: it's over means over ler (:
didn't go to school today . darn lazy .
kelvin keep ask me go school -.-
ask me smile at him . he's mad please ..
he's repeating it over and over again !
lewis buddy pangseh sia ~
say call me than meet him , no call . kanasai .
i miss you .. 010806 i couldn't forgetif you remember , my words to you ...
remember this ? the words i want to say is there ..
if you deleted it , ask me for it ...
i love you still , deeply .. i'll never forget you were once mine ..
people keep asking me cheer up . i'm sick and tired of that !
not that i don't appreciate , i do , it's just that , i can't cheer up !
imagine if you lose someone you really love .. how would you feel ?
and to add on , that guy is someone who treats you really well ..?
and it hurts to know he doesn't love you anymore ..
i know i promise to forget him .. but , i really cannot do it ..
once the image of him appears , tears appears too .
i can't seem to get him off my mind ..
i know there isn't a chance of us patching ..
because he doesn't believe in patching ..
but why can't he change his thinking for the sake of me ?
if he just lets go like that , how could he manage in the future !
can't he just give me another chance or something ?
some patched relationships go well , why can't he think positively ?
it's the first time i feel about someone this way .. really .
i use to don't bother about breaking up , and think nothing about it .
i cry for the most a day and i give up ..
for this relationship , it's different ..
i can't seem to left go easily or even let go at all .
i am crying almost everyday .. i think of him so much ~
last night i dreamed that he had a new girlfriend .
all i did was cry there .. will the dream be true ? sigh ..
i can't seem to get him off my mind ?
can't he change , for the sake of the future ?
and believe in patching ? i want him back so badly ..
as each day pass , i feel like shit .. the feeling sucks ..
i'm so not used to not calling him bee ..
not calling and sms-ing him every night ..
not meeting him after school , and not disturbing him ..
i miss his silly actions , his stupid face , the way he dote on me ..
i miss times when he ang gugu me .. when he pinches my face ..
when he tickles me , times when he call me darling & fatass .
when he sings gui ji to me , i miss his singing .. and everything .
why did things turn out this way ? can't they come back ?
i'm not used to living life without him .. it just doesn't feel right ..
can those times return ? i highly doubt so =(
i miss you , so much ..
what am i suppose to do ?
my damn sony ericson w810i spoil -.-
kanasai one can , cannot on .
arghh , damn dulan please ... _l_
FUCK .
today is normal , sort of boring still though ..
left house at around 1 and cab to tanah merah pick up tan siman .
that queen , wait for her 10 minute . almost die !
than took cab down to far east and we went to eat (:
than yuanping wifey came . than she eat ..
than liling jiemei , shuana laopo , pearl jie , jingle , angie and adeline jie came .. than we went down tinkerbell there meet yinghui and iris .
than went to 7-11 , daniel , jason daddy and shuwen sweety came .
than we shall took cab to cine . i was with jason , daniel and adeline .
earlier i know i sit in front , cannot stand adeline and daniel .
so tian mimi ~ LOL !!!
than went to cine . sally aiai , xiaosa , christine baobei and celia came ..
than went to yoshinoya , miki baby darling came ! shanling my dearie too .
i see shanling i damn happy can , so long no see her already (:
than saw chloe jie , chantel aunty and pearlyn mummy too ~
saw bernard ahboy also , he machiam MIA . so long no see him .
than me , shanling and siman went to buy liling and yuanping present .
than went down , meet up with denny kor and hande daddy .
than beibei sister came to meet us too . than we went to cuppage .
at there slack like hell , was so boring ~
than alan khoo baohua come find me take ciggerette -.- LOL !
than saw my dearest lewis buddy and terence (:
me and shanling see them play dota ?
than yanling jiejie and mogan lam came down ..
over there nothing to do ...
than denny and mogan disturb me , i almost cried la ~
they very what lor , in the end mogan say sorry . HOHOHO ~
than over there sit with mogan and talk talk , damn funny la he .
he can entertain you like mad one ? LOL !
than sing song , cut cake . people start to leave ..
than shanling we all walked back to cine . at there saw KUEK ~
LOL ! they all go take picture . than me and shanling went off .
we took cab , she dropped me off and she went off too ~
didn't manage to meet andrea my cream , sorry !
thanks to people who cheered me up today (:
thanks everyone for caring about me . don't worry , i'll be fine .
i will forget him , this is my promise to you , wei lun ..
i'm starting to feel that it's no point to continue loving him ..
i'm just getting myself more hurt and i'm wasting my time ..
since things couldn't be turned back , i might as well give up ..
like alot of people says , i must give up ..
i just want him to know ..
weilun , when we were together , those were the best days of my life . you did everything to make me put a smile on my face . there were sad , happy and angry moments , but , with you around , i feared not to put a smile on everyday . i didn't expect to put a stop to our r/s this fast . i know it's because of my attitude that made you this way . just take care of yourself alright :D hope you find a nicer , better girlfriend and treat her well . and just to let you know , not all patched r/s are not good , some are good , as for some couples , when they patch up , they last forever .. this is for your information for your further use (: take care . i'll always miss you , i'll always love you , deep down inside , you'll never be forgotton .
anyway , i got to prepare to go all the way to TANAH MERAH and pick up my QUEEN tan siman !!!
everyone , no worries , i'll be fine without him :D
i cannot take it anymore !!!
life made it worst for me without him ..
yesterday midnight . went downstairs find lewis buddy and terence (:
thanks buddy for trying to cheer me up :D
today didn't go to school .
didn't really have the mood and some more , fever still .
today . woke up at around 12 plus . stayed home and left home around 2 .
went down to school , waited for desiree and gang ..
and headed to her place . slacked there .
and than settle the thing . so dumb la .
and i went home .
thanks to those who tried cheering me up ..
but the only one who really can is him ..
but he's no longer here . was sms-ing with him last night ..
he takes is so easy . as though nothing happened ..
i've got nothing much to say ..
but i really missed him alot ..
everything is gone . the 010806 memories is gone ..
he become my memories instead of staying in my life ..
i guess i'm really a burden to him .
i can't blame him either , it's all my wrong . everything is ..
each time i see our pictures , the pain is really there .
everytime i listen to those songs we used to sing together .
my heart aches . especially when i listen to gui ji - jay chou
it reminds me of him so much ..
i miss it when he sings that song to me ..
i requested him to sing it the last time ..
he said he won't find to anyone else .. only me ..
why must he say all this ? i don't even know if it's true ..
i miss him so much . i'm such a failure in love ..
now things couldn't be turned back .
there's not even a chance of patching up .
i guess everything is really gone ?
but i'll never stop loving him .
he's someone that really means alot to me ..
he was the best boyfriend i ever had . or should i say ex-boyfriend ?
he said we're still friends . but i can't treat him as one . !
it's not easy , yet he can do it ..
sigh , 010806 ~ 1900 . i'll always remember this ..
those wonderful moments you gave me .. i'll never forget ..
i love him .. ong wei lun ~ it will never end .. sorry .
everything's over . once again ):
my love life has always been a failure ..
i'm trying to take it calmly but i can't ..
i still love him so much ...
but i respect his decision .
so now , please don't tell me about love ..
i don't believe in it anymore .
its all just SHIT .
we're over ! SOME GIRLS MUST BE SO HAPPY !!!
i blame myself for the outcome . its all my wrong .
till now , he have not contacted me . despite all my calls and messages . i've received to source of reply .. i hate this so much ~
i've been crying myself to sleep . crying too much for my age ..
i've been having lack of sleep . now , i'm having a fever .
and he doesn't know . i was hoping he cares ? but i don't know ..
baby , why are you giving me the cold shoulder ?
you're acting as though you've never known me ..
i don't want this to end , you don't know how much i'm in love with you ..
you're not giving me a chance to speak my mind ..
why are you like that now ?
i know everything started because of me ..
but , at least give me a chance to speak my mind ?
you wouldn't even want to hear me ..
now , i still think , love is still not forever ..
i love him . but i don't know if he does ? sigh ~
i just want him to pay more attention to me .
couldn't he do that ? i'm his girlfriend !!!
not an enemy . why is he treating me like one ?
god , help me could you ?
i'm in a mess .. sooner of later i'll go crazy .. i swear on that ..
my heart's breaking , my head's aching . i'm lost .
would he still be there for me ? sigh ...
i had a super duper bad quarrel with bee yesterday night . sigh , all my fault , giving him attitude when he did nothing wrong . till he really couldn't take it . sigh ...
now , i don't know what he is doing . the way he talks and message me is already different . in my opinion . i don't know is it i'm being paranoid . but ... everything seems to be changing . sigh , why did i give him attitude in the first place !!! why !!! i cried so badly last night . i cried alot of times in front of him today . my mind is really in a mess , i don't know what to do but cry now .. i don't know if he's still fuming with anger over my fucking attitude . i don't know what he is thinking now . i'm not a good girlfriend .
i'm such a failure as his stead . he is someone so wonderful , yet i'm not . he deserves better . but i made his life worse . i really don't know what to do now , i feel like i'm being a burden in his life . i don't want to lose him so badly . i really don't . i'm afraid one day , everything will change ..
all my past relationships were nothing but failures in my life . this time , it felt so right , but i ruined it . and i heard quite some girls like him ? sigh ... my troubles in my heart are piling up . but no one is there to help me . i can't possibly confront him ? cause i am his burden .
alan brother had a talk with him . he said so many things , which makes me only want to cry even more . is it true i'm not cherishing him ? he's such a good guy , i am already very lucky to have been able to meet him , yet , i messed things up ..
why did i behave this way ? sigh , i'm really afraid of losing him now . i don't want that to happen . now , all my worries are kept in my heart . i want him by my side now so badly . i wonder what he's doing now .. i've got no idea what is he doing . what type of girlfriend am i ?
all i want him to know is : bee , i'm sorry for all i had done . all my attitudes and behaviour . i know i kept saying sorry but kept repeating my mistakes time and time again . this time , after you told me how you felt yesterday night , i finally realise all the hurt i've been causing you , i'm really willing to change now . i'm willing to do anything to be with you . quit smoking , studying hard , behaving well . i know thats what you want me to be , i'll mend my ways . i just want to say i'm sorry , for everything . not learning how to cherish you the right way . not showing how i love you in the right way . sigh ...
i love you . please don't leave my side . i just want to hold your hand and be with you through out my life . from today , can we not kept anything from each other ? sigh ...
I LOVE YOU - 010806 .. please don't make this date memories ):
i just want you . and only you ...
le sigh ...
my internet connection sucked like hell .
screw the damn connection _l_ !!!
i went to bed at 4AM last night . yes . believe it or not . i only managed to catch 2 hours or winks . i was overly-excitedly watching devil beside you . i'm having drama television addiction problems . but its good . oh yes .
and i woke up at 6AM . how great is that ?
went to school , first day of term 4 . i was really sleepy .
i could actually walk and doze off at the same time .
met up with my perverts in the morning as usual .
had about an hour of nagging sessions from the school commitee .
this is way i hate first days of school . it bores me ...
first day of term 4 and here comes a science test .
i was proud to say i left 99% blank (: congratulations to me !
and for the time i had left , i slept sweetly (:
around 845 supposed to go to canteen for assembly .
yes , the canteen . as they are having o level prelims in the hall .
so , as pretty smart people , me , jeanette , georgina and desiree decided to not go for assembly as we were sure it's going to be pretty boring .
930 had recess . than at 10 we had computer study lessons .
i was so bored for heaven's sake .
than at 11 was chinese , we had chinese test as well . guess what ?
i left 50% blank (: as the 50% i filled in was multiple choices questions .
and i slept all the way till 1pm ~
woke up . had relief teacher for literature . was chatting with my perverts (:
and 2 . bell rang ! met up with ziying and emily and went to smoke .
than desiree came too (:
than me and desiree went to compass point as we were really bored .
than saw my son's . we were bullying him . LOL !
and desiree was such a chatter . she talks non-stop about her anger .
than met up with baby jaslin , her stead and her friend .
we went to the library and we were having fun there . so crappy .
than we slacked for awhile more and we dispersed (:
desiree came to my place . we watched the continue-ing disc of devil beside you (:
and and bee was so cute , he went to sing ktv AGAIN , and he sing gui ji for me , AGAIN ! i love him singing that song .. it cheers me up ALOT (:
than desiree went off at around 6 . than i was left bored .
dad told me my school said they want to meet him on friday .
i wonder what for ? i doubt i did something illegal ?
and FINALLY , i'm meeting bee tomorrow after 4 LONG DAYS !!!
i miss him like so so much ~ he's going to cry when he see's this .
hahaha ! I LOVE YOU ASSHOLE (:
and i cannot sign in to my damn msn . its boiling my pot !!
OH HELL TO MSN .
i cannot stand it !
the main guy lead in devil beside you as such as charming smile lah ~
OHMYGAUDDDD !!!
so sweet can they both ~
i swear the main lead in devil beside you is so handsome !
but bee more handsome lah ~
LOVEEEEEE ~
the stupid lixiang from devil beside you is an asshole !!!
i'm angry ><
i'm now watching devil beside you (: borrowed from cousin vcd .
its so nice can . WOOHOO ~ i'm going to choing vcd tonight !
went down to cousin's house at around 2 plus ~
bee was so sweet can ? he was at cine kbox .
he know i love hearing him sing jay chou's - gui ji !
he called me and sing to me lahhhh ~ ohmygauddddd !
i fucking love him lah ~ stupid boy ^^
than over there i rot .
than 8 plus go home . i lazy blog lah ~
devil beside you is my addiction . WOOHOO ~
going to watch little man with mummy tomorrow ^^
asked bee go he don't want . nevermind lor ):
i was digging my music folder and found this song .
although its quite lag of me . its a nice song .
the lyrics are superbly meaning like ohmygaudddddd ~
i'm listening to it over and over again .
i don't know why , i got sick of chinese songs .
and now i'm so into english songs :D
they're so much more meaningful ...
Same Script Different Cast by : whitney housten & deborah cox
Whitney: Um… hey Deb.
Deborah Cox: Mmm hmm?
WH: Thank you for being woman enough to come.
DC: Whitney, what's this about?
I know he's leaving me for you.
Who said that? Who told you that it's true?
What is he telling you?
Could it be the same things that he told me?
He told me that he loved me.
I heard that.
He told me I was beautiful. How did you know? How did you know?
Because I played that scene before.
This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause it won't last.
Same script, different cast.
What you're saying could be true.
But how can I take advice from you?
I'm not hating,
But I wish the one before me
Would have warned me too babe.
Don't say no more. La La La La La La La La La
Uncover your ears, girl.
I'm not listening. La La La La La La La La La
But I know you hear me.
Maybe my reasons are wrong,
But I know that you believe me.
This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause it won't last.
Same script, different cast.
It's your fault you didn't love him enough.
That's the problem.
I loved him too much.
And when you love him
He becomes unattracted to you.
Oh no, he's changed and I'll prove you wrong.
No you won't.
So go away. Leave us the hell alone! He loves me.
He'll hurt you.
He'll stay with me.
He'll leave you.
For sure! For sure!
This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause it won't last.
Same script, different cast.
This is a retake of my life.
You were his star for many nights.
But now the roles have changed.
I'm the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause this will last.
I'm the future, you're his past.
This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now.
Enjoy just now.
It won't last.
I know it will last.
Same script, different cast.
i'm becoming like the fatest in the world ?! ^@#@%^&&$
on thursday night
conferencing with cheryl and vanese over the phone . was so crappy can ? it was damn funny . and vanese that pig decided to go and fall asleep . so i talked to cheryl . than i put down and called bee as i was thinking i'm not tired and have the energy to talk to him for long , but , after talking for about 10 minutes . i was superbly tired . haha . so i went to bed ..
yesterday friday
i have to put friday cause now its already past 12am . which is saturday already (:
woke up at around 11 plus . called cheryl and bee up (: and was watching tv outside . than cheryl came over at around 2 plus i think ? we watched tv , i curled my hair out of boredom . i called bee , he fell back to sleep -.- that pig !
than watched tv till like 4 plus ? than went kopitiam and slack as we were so bored . went to buy lotus soup and drink . and had retarded picture sessions (: and crapped alot as usual (: than went back to my place at around 5 plus ?
went to my place , and as usual , we behaved madly ! singing and dancing around . pretending to know how to play the guitar while singing the song . and danced tango , was so much laughters :D she went back around 6 plus ?
had my dinner . watched high school musical . quite boring already ~
and watched the last episode of 大男人,小男人 ..
the ending was seriously not what i expected , so devastating please ..
i wanted to norman and melissa to get back together . but never ):
他妈的 ! that was like the reason why i watch the show ..
in the end don't have . kukubird one please ...
than around 10 went to newton eat supper with my family .
a bunch of gluttons . should go later or something isn't it ?
just eat dinner not long ago than eat supper . crazy-ness ~
than went there , i ate meatball noodle and ice kachang .
but i didn't finish both of them , my stomach was like bloated .
till the extend of me not able to stand up properly .
and when my family settled back in the car , everyone was like : AHHHH ~
hahaha . cause we were all so full for ass's sake !!
bee say his going to help my diet . LOL !
i miss him tons ): going to watch little man with mummy on sunday (:
i feel like going clubbing . LOL !
anyone got new english song intro ?
do i look malay here ? LOL !
cheryl say these say taoeh's . LOL !
she don't like me smoking ..
she's advertising daily needs (:
especially the packet of ciggerette's ..
curls . looks wierd ?
bee's new hair colour (: he looks so cute please .
at salon while waiting for alan brother cut hair .
yesterday night was like total crap please ..
was talking to bee on the phone . i laughed like mad :D
he never fails to make me laugh can ?
i was like , i'm tired , he asked me to sleep .
i was like 5 more minutes . and i drag till about 30 minutes ?
who ask him ? talk so much , make me in the mood of chatting .
was woken up by his stupid message at 8plus ):
i was so tired please , i called desiree and she cleaned forgotten .
luckily i called her , if not i would have been dua-ed ..
she came over at around 9.30 ..
i still had to walk to mrt to fetch me . i was like a walking zombie lah ~
than went to buy ciggerette's first ~
the uncle was like : 你几岁 ?
me : uncle , 我十九岁 le leh ~
and he believed , maybe i got chao lao bin . hahaha !
than went back to my place , first thing we did , lie on the bed .
was so shiok lah ~ cause my room was like so cold .
than we were watching richie rich on HBO or starmovies . can't remember .
so cool lah that show . he even has his own rollar coaster !!!
than we slacked around and stuff and left my place at around 12.30 ~
took mrt back to school , coming to realise alot of people were not going , and i mean ALOT !!! me and desiree the mood was like , wahlao , SIAN !!!
than go in school , luckily saw vincent kor , he was going . LOL !
than melvin came too . lucky lah ! me and desiree is like the only girl throughout the sec 1 , 2's and 3's .
overall the trip was freakish-ly scary and boring ..
oh yeah , forgot to mention , out trip was to the selarang drug rehabilation center .
we were like criminals lah ~ imagine that ?
when the programme ended and we got out of that place , we were like YAY ! we're released . hahaha . LOL !!!
than reached school , took cab to hougang mall find bee and alan . alan cutting hair . he looks to girl lah ~ and bee dyed his hair base darker . i was not really used to it , but he looks very toot and really like a good boy . and so japanese please .. and that alan , push my head , sadly i'm short . i can't reach his when he's standing . haha !
than went to foodcourt eat . told bee i don't want eat he still buy for me . in the end i eat finish (: haha . i saw baby too ~
than went to NTUC as alan wanted to buy ciggerette's . the commotion was damn hillarious i tell you . alan got me and bee laughing away like mad cow disease patients . hahaha !
than went to pasar malam buy ding dang tang . and we took bus82 back (:
alan looked very girl . hahaha . he says he is sunshine boy . LMAO !
and bee kept diturbing me !!! nonstop lah ~ stupid him !
don't know why he was so noisy today ! VERY EXTREMELY INDEED !!!
than alan dropped at kovan first as bee send me home (:
than he went back to meet alan . i went home , watched tv . eat dinner .
daddy don't let me ton cheryl house , i give attitude . got scolding _l_
i fell asleep , wake up watch channel 8 大男人，小男人 .
its a nice show lah ~ it made me tear abit can ~
i miss bee ): today was sort of great + a spice of scary-ness due to the trip ..
but alan and bee never fails to make me laugh . they're like so crappy ?
lastly , I LOVE ONG WEI LUN THAT IDIOT (:
just now i said daddy was a nice guy ..
but now he simply is god damn unreasonable .
i guess the hate i have for him would never end ?
i hate my family , they only care about themselves .
never once spared a thought on how i feel .
mother cheebye's . fuck you all dead can !
i swear i hate you all , i never want to be in such a family .
can i just quick grow up and move out ?
its a plain disaster living in here . its like fucking hell ~
the only one that i continue living for was bee .
cause he is the only one who is really there .
all the time , hais . i miss him alot ):
he's still sleeping ~
I HATE MY FAMILY .
IF I COULD SEVERE TIES WITH THEM .
HOW I WISH I COULD .
BUT I'LL WAIT FOR THAT TO HAPPEN IN THE FUTURE .
FAMILY STINKS _l_
i miss bee alot ): i feel like crying .
i want hug him to sleep so much ):
i want spend my nights with him ..
so we can crap all day long and i can have a human bolster .
bee is mine , any girl snatch i confirm box .
): i miss him .
i'm so bored please ..
at home got nothing to do want ):
i want move house laaa ~
move to somewhere more fun !!!
i realise daddy is actually very good guy .
he buys me whatever i want (:
and he only scolds me when i done something wrong .
i just hope my stepmom will be more understanding ...
its like when we go out , she decided everything .
when she don't go out , everyone stays at home ..
hope my family will get along well yeah :DDDD
i miss bee alot .
i've still need to go school tomorrow ):
i'm so bored please .
now got nothing do to , except smoke . boring ~
later i die early how ?
hahaha . okay la , i'm just being lame .
and my dearest VANESE NG HUI LIN ~
smile okay (: weeteck is just sleeping .
I LOVE YOU CAN ALREADY LA . DAMN IT .
hahaha . loves -
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dress . love the design lah ~ unique to me .
do i look malay here ? LOL !
cheryl say these say taoeh's . LOL !
she don't like me smoking ..
she's advertising daily needs (:
especially the packet of ciggerette's ..
curls . looks wierd ?
bee's new hair colour (: he looks so cute please .
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